As the time gets closer to our baby son's arrival, we are getting more excited (of course), and I know I am getting more nervous. It is amazing how many different emotions are going on through me. I could be one minute happy, content, go to crying, then laughing, mad, upset, annoyed, frustrated, and back to smiling, in a mater of, I would say, a few minutes! Most the time when I go through these "mood swings" I am at home, by myself. I try not to show much crazy prago lady when my husband or other people are over at my house! But...AnYwAys...I thought I had a point to what I was saying above...but OF COURSE, I.lost my train of thought with my mind wandering on different subjects.
O yeah, what I was saying...the point...well I did have it...then I lost it again...
Also, as the time gets closer...I wonder...what will our son look like?! Will two negatives make a positive (like in math)?! What color hair will he have, what type of hair will he have...his eyes...what color will they be?! Will he be blind like me?! ...will he have BIG..I mean HUGE ears and a nose..?! Will he have a "butt" chin like his daddy's?! Will he have dimples like his daddy?!? What in the world is he going to look like...or who in the world will he look like?! gulp hmmmm....raise of eyebrows...
....sorry, my mind wandered...again...
Another thing I have been thinking about is...when will I have him...like at how many weeks?! How many pounds will he weigh?! How am I going to give birth?! Will I need a c-sections?! Will I use drugs?! How many pounds will he be?!? Inches?!? Will I puke/poo/pee?!? Can I walk?!? Will I have an IV?! Will the labor be long...or short!? Will he be a premie??!! Maybe I am just...over working myself with all these useless questions...!?
His name...will we change it to something else?! I really can not stand when people call him Obie or Obie 1 Kanobie or Odie...his name is Obadiah...If my 4 year old sister, 3 year old brother in law, and 2 year old sister in law can say something along the lines of "OB-A-DIAH...why can't older people say it?! Do I really want to put myself through all the stress of what people will call him...I mean...because it All really does not matter..if I wanted his name to be Obie or Obie 1 Kanobie or Odie wouldnt I have just names him that?! sigh...some so little
Will I be a bad mother?! Will I forget my child somewhere because I am not used to the whole child thing yet?! Will my child grow up and reject God...and will that look down on chris and I!? Will he go through "terrible-twos"?!? (christopher and I both agree that, a child only goes through those terrible-twos if decipline does not start early)! How will we react or what will we say when others try and tell us what we should do or not do for our children?! Schooling?! This is a huge responsibility...more responsibility then a pet...wow...thats all I can say...
moment of silence..random thinking...again
My friend stoped by and visited me yesterday, and I got to meet her 12 day old son, Brennan!! He was SUCH a cutie!! She had him at 36 weeks and weighed about 6 lbs!! I was holding baby Brennan and talking to him, and my little son was kicking up a storm...I think he was sensing that his mama was holding another baby!! All I could think of was...wow...I knew this friend before she was pragnant and saw her through out her pragnancy, it was WAY different and so special holding her baby. It is very hard to explain!! It was, very comforting to see how well she took care of her baby boy, and how well her baby boy was doing. It helped a lot knowing that she is "doing well", being a single mommy, raising her baby boy! (I think this was random..sorry)
A new update...I can NO LONGER SEE MY TOES when I am standing strait up...I had my "non-pragnant" friend stand up against the wall and look down at her feet...she can see her toes...when I do that...I can not...but if I lean against the wall..I can see my toes...! I will have to take a picture...christopher was laughing at me when I was showing him the "wall-trick"!
....well I called my sister in law over to "keep me company" (help me deep clean my house) I got some fancy house hold cleaning supplies...so I am SO excited about using!! Funny...never thought I would be excited about that.
well I am going to go...because my thoughts are ALL scrambled...and I am lost with everything...where am I?! . . . thats right...Bremerton, WA...in my appartment..I think I am good now....